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The Maze Runner

First Line: He began his new life standing up, surrounded by cold darkness and stale, dusty air.

About: When Thomas wakes up in the lift, the only thing he can remember is his first name. His memory is blank. But he’s not alone. When the lift’s doors open, Thomas finds himself surrounded by kids who welcome him to the Glade—a large, open expanse surrounded by stone walls.

Just like Thomas, the Gladers don’t know why or how they got to the Glade. All they know is that every morning the stone doors to the maze that surrounds them have opened. Every night they’ve closed tight. And every thirty days a new boy has been delivered in the lift.

Thomas was expected. But the next day, a girl is sent up—the first girl to ever arrive in the Glade. And more surprising yet is the message she delivers. 

Thomas might be more important than he could ever guess. If only he could unlock the dark secrets buried within his mind. (goodreads)

Author: James Dashner

Pages: 374

Publisher: Delacorte Press 

Review: I have seen this book around for awhile, at bookstores or on goodreads and stuff, but hadn't ever thought of reading it. I didn't know what it was about or anything, and the cover was strange, I couldn't figure out what is on it. Then Hannah Elise recommended it to me, and I was just like "...Ugh, okay, I'll read it to review it," but to tell you the truth I probably wouldn't have ever read it if it hadn't been recommended.

Getting this book was a bit difficult. I typed 'The Maze Runner' in the search box on my library's website, but it didn't come up, so I decided to wait and see if i could get it some other way. But time passed, and no book. I tried the website again, ('cause my family never goes to the library in person, I have to put things on hold to get anything :P) but this time I typed 'Maze Runner' and viola, it came up. *facepalm*

Anyway, long story short, I got the book. And determined that my library needs a better website. 

The moment I finished the first page my thoughts were "...This is weird... but I think I like it."

Let me explain. The book starts when Thomas enters this... place... and he has no idea who he is or why he is there. So the whole book is full of questions. The reader is just as confused as Thomas throughout most of the book (of course you will figure a lot out at the end... but I'm not saying what happens) which is kind of genius. 

I couldn't help feeling the sense of genius throughout the whole book, trying to figure out who Thomas is.

And this book was also super refreshing. It is a dystopian, but it's in a guy's point of view, and it's actually in third person! Reading in third person almost seemed weird after all the first person books I've been reading. Thank you, James Dashner!

I just loved the idea of the whole book, the maze, though scary, sounds like a cool place. Some of the things in the book was a bit hard for me to visualize, like the Grievers, I just couldn't imagine them, but that might just be me.

My favorite character was Chuck. I don't know why. But Thomas's relationship with him and several other characters were strange. Like one moment he thinks Chuck is annoying, and the next he thinks of him as a little brother who needs protecting. I just thought the relationship was a bit inconsistent.

Gally and Alby were a bit annoying, but I could handle them. I did like Newt, he was my second favorite. And, actually I didn't like Teresa. She was just too perfect.

When I turned the last page, my mind was literally blown. I want the next book! 

Great. I've started another series.


Romance: None really. but i think there will be some between Thomas and Teresa in latter books.

Violence: Okay, here's the thing, a lot of people don't like this book because they think there is a bunch of violence. And while there was a little bit, most of it was self defense against the Grievers. Plus, violence in books doesn't bother me, and I've read way worse. 

Other fun stuff: 

“You are the shuckiest shuck faced shuck in the world!” 

― James Dashner, The Maze Runner

“Shouldn't someone give a pep talk or something?" Minho asked, pulling Thomas's attention away from Alby.

"Go ahead," Newt replied.
Minho nodded and faced the crowd. "Be careful," he said dryly. "Don't die.” 
― James DashnerThe Maze Runner

“I promised him!" he screamed, realizing even as he did so that his voice was laced with something wrong. Almost insanity. "I promised I'd save him, take him home! I promised him!” 

― James Dashner, The Maze Runner

“Maybe you should just press the button” 

― James Dashner, The Maze Runner

Recommended Age: 13+


I'm goin' to camp... sort of

After I've spent all week talking about my sister going to camp, I decided; It's about time I go to camp myself, you know. So, I'm signed up, packed up, and ready to hop on the bus bright and early Monday morning to go to camp nanowrimo. I will be swimming, canoeing, and eating my body weight in s'mores. 

Okay, camp nanowrimo isn't exactly like that... and, okay, it's online. But still.

I've never ever done anything like nanowrimo before. All my writing friends have told me about it, but the past two years November has been a bad time for me to write a full out novel, and I didn't really have a novel to write in April (the first month of camp nano). Now that I think about it, July probably won't be a very good month for me, but it's a challenge. I can't just keep waiting until i have a month with nothing, because that's not happening for a million years.

I've always been interested in doing nano, but now I am signed up and officially actually doing it!  For my first time, I'm only doing 30,000 words, but it still seems like a lot. :/

Nano + 4-H + the fair + everything else going on= busy July. So, don't expect a whole lot of posts this upcoming month. Once August comes I will be able to breathe, and I mean, actually breathe... ahhh, breathing will be nice. I will try to occasionally try to post, but if you would like to guest post to ease my busy self, please, don't hesitate to email me. Just go to the contact page and fill out the thingy and send it, please, I need all the help I can get this month, and if you would like to guest post that would help a whole lot!

Anyway, also, it might be a bit funny, but please be thinking and praying for me this July. Writing 30k in one month is something I've never attempted, and I also have two giant 4-H projects to put together, and the judging dates are creeping up on me, and my projects aren't even close to being done. #stress #procrastinating #idontwanttothinkaboutit

And I just remembered, I have to work for jr. leaders too... ugh! See it never ends!


If you want to guest post, let me know. 

I'll try to see you during July, but I'll miss you if it proves to busy to post.

byeee! :)   

My Own Little Adventures

Poor Hannah. Poor, poor, poor Hannah. All alone. Nothin' to do.

Okay. I'm a sad mess right now. I have now lived a full one, two, three, four.... four days without my sister.

Sometimes I do wish I had gone with her, get some real camp adventure under my belt, but when I really think about it, I'm glad I decided not to go. Whenever I think about the stories we'll have to share, it sounds fun. I mean, when she is here, we are usually together, nothing new or exciting to share, but now we could spend a whole month remembering and telling stories of our own adventures while we were apart.

Okay, I'll admit it, my week hasn't been the most exciting or novel worthy week at all. But I guess I did have a small amount of adventures myself.

Like actually making something on pinterest... working on my book outline and getting ready for camp nano... getting stuff for my genealogy project... learning interesting stuff about my family... playing sailors with my little sister, Emma... trying to get Leigha to smile at me (no success)... finding bands I love (cough, cough, Celtic Thunder, cough)... recovering from that weird headache thing I had... almost getting a date to get my braces off... etc.

So yeah. I guess I did have a pretty good week when you think about it, er, really think about it. But I can't  wait to hear all of Chauncea's campy stories. She comes home tomorrow.

Well see you in the funnies! :)

Just out of it

I must apologize... I have just been so out of it lately.

You know when it feels like your mind is just a million miles away... well, that's what has been like for me all week so far. My head hurts, I'm dizzy. Whenever I get an idea for a post or anything I quickly forget it. I'm having a hard time focusing and concentrating on anything.

I don't really think it has much to do about my sister being gone, I'm just not feeling all that great.

And since Chauncea has left, my other siblings have decided that Chauncea is way more fun than me and that I just "hide myself in a dark corner all day reading a book..." Which is not true! I could not hide myself in a dark corner, not enough reading light. Plus, Extrovert! I would drive myself crazy.

I'm trying not to let it get to me, because they are convinced that in order for someone to be "fun" they have to go outside and play sports. And you have no idea how bad I am at sports! That is one of the things I am different from my younger siblings, they all eat, breathe, sleep baseball, soccer, anything that involves a ball.

Oh well. Hannah is frustrated.

...And totally unsure if she should publish this.... oh well, I probably will because I've got nothin' else.

Here's a song to make you happy!



First Line: There is one mirror in my house.

About: In Beatrice Prior's dystopian Chicago world, society is divided into five factions, each dedicated to the cultivation of a particular virtue--Candor (the honest), Abnegation (the selfless), Dauntless (the brave), Amity (the peaceful), and Erudite (the intelligent). On an appointed day of every year, all sixteen-year-olds must select the faction to which they will devote the rest of their lives. For Beatrice, the decision is between staying with her family and being who she really is--she can't have both. So she makes a choice that surprises everyone, including herself.

During the highly competitive initiation that follows, Beatrice renames herself Tris and struggles alongside her fellow initiates to live out the choice they have made. Together they must undergo extreme physical tests of endurance and intense psychological simulations, some with devastating consequences. As initiation transforms them all, Tris must determine who her friends really are--and where, exactly, a romance with a sometimes fascinating, sometimes exasperating boy fits into the life she's chosen. But Tris also has a secret, one she's kept hidden from everyone because she's been warned it can mean death. And as she discovers unrest and growing conflict that threaten to unravel her seemingly perfect society, she also learns that her secret might help her save those she loves . . . or it might destroy her.

Author: Veronica Roth

Pages: 487

Publisher: Katherine Tegen Books

Review: I have seen this book floating around the bookshelves for a long time. People have said it's like The Hunger Games, and looking at the cover art, I could believe it. I didn't even take the time to read the synopsis, I just sort of assumed it was exactly like The Hunger Games. I don't know why I put it on my to-read list, guess I had heard enough people talking about it and thought I would give it a try. (I don't know, i do strange things without thinking)

Anyway, I started reading it and after the first page i was kind of like; "okay, interesting.... I think I kind of like it...a lot." The first day (or night, I started it pretty late in the day) I'm pretty sure I read a good 100 pages. Than the next day, thank goodness we didn't have anything to do that day, because I would've gone mad. My whole day was dedicated to reading this book... with a few breaks for living and eating. I stayed up pretty late that night to read it. After that I still had 80 pages to read, but i finished it pretty quick the next morning.

That's like, only two days! I think that is the fastest I've ever read a book... seriously.

I pretty much LOVED this book! (notice my use of both bold and italics :)

I think I loved this book more than The Hunger Games and Matched (and if you remember my reviews for both I liked those quite a bit.) It was that good.

I absolutely loved the plot.... it was beautiful, but painful. And the characters were awesome. The story idea itself is like.... GAHHH! I loved it sooo much!


I so didn't fangirl while reading this book... noooo. It's not like half-way through the book I took a quiz to see what faction I would be in... no... (BTW, I'm Amity... just thought I'd let you know) nothing like that...

Yeah. I have joined another fandom. i'll admit it.

It's just so beautiful!

Anyway. The characters. Get back on track, Hannah.

I did like the cast in this book. Most of the time i'm annoyed with one or more characters, even in books I love, but I didn't have this problem with this book.

And the plot!... ahem... okay. it was nice... for the first 70% of the book... Then it exploded! It just pounded my heart into something sad.

I need the next book!

And *spoiler* I totally shipped Tris and Four from the beginning .. but of course, it was kind of predictable by the way she described him the first time she saw him... *spoiler*

Anyway, a greeeeaaaat book! (pick it up now and read it!)

Romance: Lots of kisses and some mention of inappropriate things. The best part!? No love triangle! Thank you Ms. Roth!

Violence: Yeah... ahem... lots. They like wake up and fight people. Then the end... ugh! okay, yeah, lots.

Other fun Stuff: 

“We believe in ordinary acts of bravery, in the courage that drives one person to stand up for another.” 
― Veronica RothDivergent 

“I might be in love with you." He smiles a little. "I'm waiting until I'm sure to tell you, though.” 
― Veronica RothDivergent 

“Becoming fearless isn't the point. That's impossible. It's learning how to control your fear, and how to be free from it.” 

― Veronica Roth, Divergent

“Peter would probably throw a party if I stopped breathing.'

'Well,' he says, 'I would only go if there was cake.” 
― Veronica Roth, Divergent

“Sometimes crying or laughing are the only options left, and laughing feels better right now.” 

― Veronica Roth, Divergent

Recommended Age: 13-14+


Yeah... I'm going to go fangirl now.

Making Summer Playlist

There's a type of music for every season, I think. Spring is the happy kind, Winter is the dark mysterious kind. The type of music I think about in the Summer is usually the party, live life music. Very lively, and full of energy.

So, I have made a summer playlist, for you all to listen to this summer to be all cool. Because my music is too cool for school. dB) (see, he's wearing a baseball cap and sunglasses. :)

Anyway... While there are some up beat, lively tunes here, I do have some softer ones. I really love these songs, so check them out!


1: Ready or Not// Bridgit Mendler
2: Amazing Life// Britt Nicole
3: Our July in the Rain// He is We
4: My Fault// Imagine Dragons
5: I'm Only Me when I'm with You// Taylor Swift
6: Cups// Anna Kendrick
7: Merry Go 'Round// Kacey Musgraves 
8: Butterfly Wings// Owl City
9: Gone, Gone, Gone// Phillip Phillips
10: Drops of Jupiter// Train

What will you be listening to this Summer?

Harry Potter just Annoys the Heck out of me...

I apologize in advance to all of the Harry Potter fans out there.

Okay, I haven't ever read Harry Potter... I'm not really allowed to. And I'm sure it's a great story, and J.K. Rolling is probably an amazing writer, but that's not why Harry Potter annoys me.

The thing that annoys me is that whenever there is a hint of magic in any book/movie/etc., all of the die-hard Harry Potter fans explode. "Oh. My. Goshies! They are soooo trying to copy Harry Potter. blah."

I was watching the trailer for the Inkheart movie... or at least I thought it was. It ended up to be a trailer review thing. So it played the trailer, then at the end these two people popped up out of nowhere and started talking about the trailer, and what they think about it.

The first thing the lady said after the trailer played was; "...I don't know, it looks like another Harry Potter." Now if anyone has ever read Inkheart, you would know that it isn't anything at all like Harry Potter. sure, there is action, and sure there is super power abilities, but that doesn't mean that the author of Inkheart was trying to make another Harry Potter. 

J.K. Rolling did not invent the use of magic or super powers in books, but yet everyone acts as if she did. 

The fans pretty much think that Harry Potter is the only thing worth living for. 

I don't know if you have noticed, but there are about a bazillion people who read only Harry Potter. And, I don't know, it just annoys me.

I don't know if you guys have noticed it, but I have. Harry Potter fans are... quite passionate. I don't really care for it, but they try to shove it down my throat, make me like it, but, it isn't working.

I understand. I'm a fangirl myself, but this is just insane.

Please let me know if you feel the same way, because, I don't really think I'm making sense.

I just feel like us non-Harry Potter fans should say something about all of this madness.     

launch! (my random little announcement)

If you are reading this on your dashboard, I have to order you to click over here immediately! That's right, the new site is up!

What do you think?

(Here's a look at the before)

I know, you were all dying to see the new stuff, right?

When I announced that I was going to re-do the whole site I said that it would be launched on May 20th, well, life happened and it took about a month or so longer than I thought.

It took a long time to get this up, and a lot of designs and coding and blah. (Just ask my family, they were the ones I forced to look at every single one) But I am absolutely happy with it.


Okay, i'm spazing out. :) :D

I am sooo excited to start with this new site. :)

I hope you love it!

Smiley faces!

A Taste of Summer


Okay, we've already established that Summer is my least favorite season, but- as with all seasons- there are those moments you want to remember forever so that one day when they invent the time machine (still a work in progress, but I have faith they shall perfect it before I die) you can revisit them over and over and over again.

Summer's moments are the pool splashes, the greasy county fair food, the warm, quiet nights, firefly catching. All these things are what make Summer bearable.

This weekend was the first taste of Summer for me. Going to my aunt's house and spending the day in her pool with my cousins, eating fish my grandpa caught, and poolside reading and tanning (well, reading... I just don't tan :P ) Then yesterday, for father's day getting ice cream in town. Even though I am not technically done with school (I just have a bit more to do... shhhh) I can feel the summer wave hitting me.

Happy summer!

The Lightning Thief

First Line: Look, I didn't want to be a  half-blood.

About: Percy Jackson is about to be kicked out of boarding school... again. And that's the least of his troubles. Lately, mythological monsters and the gods of Mount Olympus seem to be walking straight out of the pages of Percy's Greek mythology textbook and into his life. And worse, he's angered a few of them. Zeus' master lightning bolt has been stolen, and Percy is the prime suspect.

Now Percy and his friends have just ten days to find and return Zeus' stolen property and bring peace to a warring Mount Olympus. But to succeed on his quest, Percy will have to do more than catch the true thief: he must come to terms with the father who abandoned him; solve the riddle of the Oracle, which warns him of betrayal by a friend; and unravel a treachery more powerful than the gods themselves. (goodreads)

Author: Rick Riordan

Pages: 389

Publisher: Disney Hyperion

Review: I think I waited to read this book for a rather long time. My dad had bought it for my sister a year or so ago and I decided I would read it after her. But she read a few chapters and didn't like it. Naturally I didn't really want to read it if she hadn't liked it, so the book has been collecting dust on her book shelf for a long time. 

I don't know what possessed me to finally read it, but I finally thought "Okay, I'll just read it to check it off my list," and with that, I started reading it.

I had already read a lot the day I started this book. After finishing the last fifty or so pages in Eragon I decided to read the first chapter of The Lightning Thief. Well, one chapter turned into two chapters, two chapters turned into three chapters, and before I knew it I had read 100 pages. I was surprised with myself.

I am usually not a fan if this type of middle-grade book (they just reek middle school), and while this book did have its episodes of obvious middle grade juvenile stuff, I was kind of impressed.

The idea is a very unique one. And it is very educational. I learned more about Greek Mythology reading this book than I have in my entire life! 

I'm positive that there is no such thing as Greek gods in real life, like in the book, but it was creative. 

The characters were bitter-sweet for me, they had their moments of brilliance, then their moments of ick, but all in all I liked them. I think I loved Grover the best. I honestly didn't expect him to have a very big roll in the book when i first met him, but i learned to like him a lot. *spoiler* I was sad that he had to go in the end, I hope he comes back in future books *spoiler*

The biggy for Christians with these Greek mythology books is, what about God? And, it's tricky for me to weed this out. okay, the book never denied the existence of God. They mentioned Him once and said that God is on a larger scale. But after that they don't really talk about Him. I don't think that the author is trying to make people believe in Greek gods, he's just trying to teach kids greek mythology in a fun way. I just see it as a fun story than someone trying to deny God. i don't know if that makes sense, but if you guys have any other ideas about this subject, let me know.

So yeah, despite the fact that this book is middle-grade, I was pleasantly surprised. I can't wait to read the others.

Romance: i suspect something is going to happen between Annabeth and Percy, even though there wasn't any romance in this one, i can see it coming in future books. Annabeth does have a little crush on Luke, but it fades (you'll learn why at the end of the book).

Violence: killing, monsters, swords. Need I say more?

Recommended Age: 10+ A great book for middle-grade boys. (have to throw that in there because all I could think about while reading this book was my 10 year old brother)


While it was good, it did have it's middle-grade moments.

Where my Heart is Happiest // A Bit of Fernweh

Awhile ago, I read this post on Emma's blog and learned a new word, Fernweh...

(n.) an ache for distant places; the craving for travel 
Fernweh. Not only does it look pretty on a page, it's meaning is something near and dear to my heart.

According to my mom, I have spoken of traveling since I was young. Though I don't remember it, she claims I used to talk about moving far away when I got bigger. I also remember when I wanted to be a missionary so bad so that I could go somewhere cool.

So, yeah, travel has been something I've wanted to do for a long time.

I have now grown a heart for Europe. My traveling dreams have changed from wanting to tour Europe for a year to living in Paris for the rest of my life. (you know, once I graduate) I just want to go somewhere.

It's kind of hard for me, I have barely left the state, let alone the country, plus with a family of nine plane tickets can't be cheap. My mom doesn't really like to travel, and my parents would never let me go somewhere out of country by myself, even if I did save up the money myself. (Watching the movie Taken, has shaken them up on letting their daughters travel alone in Europe.) I have tried asking my dad if he could try to get a job transfer to Ireland for a year, but he just sort of laughed at me. (but I shan't give up!)

Sometimes I feel stuck. There could be weeks upon weeks where I could be stuck in the house. Especially being homeschooled.

I try to tell myself that this must be where God wants me right now, but it's hard.

Whenever I'm feeling a wave of fernweh, I have found that reading helps, but sometimes it makes me want to travel even more.

I'm a bird without wings. My heart longs for travel, but i am unable to fly.

*Surprise Review!* Eragon//Note of updates

Dear blog readers,

quick update, since it's been forever since I've posted last. No, I haven't forgotten this blog, I just never have anything to post about. I have been reading quite a bit, but I haven't gotten a chance to pick up The Maze Runner yet. I've put it on hold at my library... twice... and missed it each time. I have it on hold again, but since my new baby sister (yes, I have a new baby sister! And yes, she is super cute!) came, everything that used to be simple is now harder, so just bear with me while I adjust to the new-ness. So, while you are all waiting for The Maze Runner review, please enjoy this review of a book you all have probably read. During the summer I hope to read a lot more, but if you guys have any ideas of anything fun for me to do with this blog over the summer please let me know. 

...Okay, enough boring stuff... On with the review.

Happy Summer,


First Line: The wind howled through the night, carrying a scent that would change the world.

About: One boy . . .

One dragon . . .

A world of adventure.

When Eragon finds a polished blue stone in the forest, he thinks it is the lucky discovery of a poor farm boy; perhaps it will buy his family meat for the winter. But when the stone brings a dragon hatchling, Eragon soon realizes he has stumbled upon a legacy nearly as old as the Empire itself. 

Overnight his simple life is shattered, and he is thrust into a perilous new world of destiny, magic, and power. With only an ancient sword and the advice of an old storyteller for guidance, Eragon and the fledgling dragon must navigate the dangerous terrain and dark enemies of an Empire ruled by a king whose evil knows no bounds.

Can Eragon take up the mantle of the legendary Dragon Riders? The fate of the Empire may rest in his hands.

Author: Christopher Paolini

Pages: 503

Publisher: Knopf Books

Review: Before reading this book, I had read several reviews for it, you know, just for fun. And many reviews said that this book is like Star Wars in a Lord of the Rings setting, and after reading it... i couldn't agree more. 

I don't know how to explain it, you would have to read it yourself to see the similarities, but it really was like Star Wars in a LOTR setting. Obi-Wan (Brom), Hans Solo (Murtagh), Luke Skywalker (Eragon)... and so on. There were few differences.

I must admit, I was expecting this book to be the golden book of all books, but I was a bit disappointed... the whole book was just... long. It took me forever it felt like to finish this book. 

There were several parts where I thought would be a better stopping point, but, no, we just had to wait for the epic battle scene (which I didn't even get) before the book was over.

The whole pace of the book was so bizarre. First it was going slow, then fast, then slow again... It was rather confusing. It took awhile before anything exciting happened, though.

Overall, the story idea was an interesting one, but the whole plot and everything is drowning in so much description  which was good writing-wise, but got old and boring really fast.

I tip my hat to Mr. Paolini for being able to write a book when he was 15 and have it be such a success, he's an inspiration to other young writers that they can make it, but his work definitely needs more originality, and less description.

I don't know if I'll ever read anything else from him, but this was an okay book.

Also, I must say, Brom annoyed the heck out of me. (sorry, but the big fancy words he used were hard to pronounce, and looked funny, and were completely unnecessary. *spoiler* I was glad he died *spoiler*)

Anyway, thanks for reading this crummy review.

Romance: I'm pretty sure there is romance in the latter books, but not really any in this. Though it's totally predictable. Eragon's going to get the perfect Elf, isn't he?

Violence: There was as much violence as there was description... okay maybe not that much, but you get it. A lot.

Recommended Age: 13+


While this book was good, it just wasn't my cup-o-tea.

This house ^, though it may not look like much, has always had a special place in my heart. 

It was my Great Aunt's house, and since she died, we are trying to sell it. But now that we are trying to get rid of it I'm starting to realize just how special this house has been to me.

Many of my childhood memories are with that house. I remember I would always get excited when I was allowed to walk over there all by myself to visit with Aunt Barb, even though it always reeked of cigarette smoke. I remember going over there to feed her cats (well, before they ran away), we even had a photoshoot over there.

So this place has been a big part of my life. Watching it going up for sale is... I don't know... bittersweet? On one hand I'm glad that someone is going to come and fill the empty house, and we will get a new neighbor. But then on the other it feels, in a way, like they are ripping a part of my childhood away. I know that the house won't ever be the way I remember it, with new people coming to live in it.

It's just weird how things are changing. I'm usually fine with change, but I guess it's finally hitting me just how much things are changing.

A Tale of Two Hannahs

If someone asked me to describe myself, I would say I'm like two very different people are living inside of me.

like two different Hannahs. The one I let people see, and the other that is trying to find her way out.

The first Hannah (Hannah#1 if you will) is the loud, happy, friendly, fun person who I guess I am... This the the Hannah that get's the most time outside in front of people. She want's nothing more than to make people like her. She is scared of rejection and is afraid quite often that people find her annoying. 

Then there is Hannah#2, who is quiet and shy, of course, she has to be with Hannah#1 taking the spotlight. Hannah#2 is thoughtful, observant. She has opinions, but keeps them quiet. She is the one who loves books and words. She usually let's Hannah#1 be the main personality, but she is ready for people to see her.

"I knew who I was this morning, but I've changed a few times since then"~Alice in Wonderland

I've spent my whole life trying to let people see the first me, and now that the second me wants to shine, I find it difficult to change.

Whenever I'm around people they fight, and I truly wish they could find peace, a middle, where people can see both.

But #1 will always push #2 away, because #1 is scared that people won't like #2. But that's just who she is.

I've got to push #2 out a bit, something i'm still working on, because #2 has sort of excepted the fact that people won't like her, so she sits quietly in the back of my mind, but the thing is, she's tired of being quiet.

So, get ready world, Hannah#2 is emerging, and, despite what Hannah#1 says, she is going to blow your mind.

Around the bend

Whenever I sit down to write a post, I tell myself to write what's on my mind at the moment, or something interesting that's happening now in my life. Well, I have gotten to a point in the year where everything is the same, crazy, crazy, crazy.

And I know you don't want to hear me rant about how close to summer break I am, or how frazzled it's been over here fifty bazillion times. So I've tried to force myself to write something interesting, but all that's come of that are posts that would never be worthy to publish.

I've been waiting for something exciting to happen. But really, nothing has. Even when I try to look at it different ways, it doesn't even look interesting.

I wish I knew what would happen. Sometimes I wish I could plan my life perfectly, so I know exactly how it's going to go.

I'm a plotter, I like seeing my stories laid out in front of me. And sometimes it bothers me that I can't see into my future.

But I guess that's the exciting part about life, when you wake up you have no idea what's going to happen. You just live life, hoping that something, a dream, or wish, comes true.

I don't know what is going to happen in my life. I don't even know what I want to do when I get out of high school. But all I can do is live life, hoping that God will lead me where I'm suppose to go. Because, unlike me, he knows exactly where I'm suppose to be, and will help me understand and get me there.

 "don't know what lies around the bend, but I'm going to believe that the best does."   ~Anne Shirley 

Everyday Stories

I have a strange fascination with stories. I see people walking past and wonder what their story is.

Maybe it's because I'm a writer.

But it's something that most people don't care about these days. We don't care if someone else is hurting, all we care about is our own hurt. Do we even realize that other people might be hurting?

I wrote about this in my notebook last night, because it was really bothering me.

I don't know, but I usually dwell on these things until I get it out in some way.

The copy I wrote in my notebook probably doesn't make sense, since I wrote it at 11:00 at night when I was really tired, but my feelings are still the same.

I care. I really do. I want to be able to know people's stories, to comfort them in hurting, and cheer when they're triumphant.

I care.