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Pandemonium (Danger! might be spoilers of Delirium and Pandemonnium)

I'm finally here with another review! I've been slapping myself in the face lately, telling myself to get this review UP NOW!!! but I didn't remember until today, after Christmas. :P But I'm here now!

First Line: Alex and I are lying together on a blanket in the backyard of 37 Brooks.

About: I'm pushing aside the memory of my nightmare, 
pushing aside thoughts of Alex,
pushing aside thoughts of Hana and my old school,
like Raven taught me to do.
The old life is dead.
But the old Lena is dead too.
I buried her.
I left her beyond a fence,
behind a wall of smoke and flame.

Pages: 375

Author: Lauren Oliver

Publisher: HarperCollins

Review: (contains spoilers)I had been fighting with myself for a long time over whether or not to read this book. After reading the first one in the trilogy, I wanted to wait awhile before picking this one up, but frankly, Lauren Oliver managed to create a big enough cliff hanger to drive me crazy enough to finally just read it.

I liked the way that this book was set up. When I first started, I though the "Now" part was some kind of prologue thing to keep you wondering what had happened before hand, but that was not the case. For those of you who haven't read this book, there aren't really chapters. They keep switching from "Then" and "Now". Each "chapter" is in a different time. When you start reading, it is "Now" but the next "chapter" is "Then". 

For some people I guess this could get confusing, but I actually thought it was very well done. At the end of each "chapter" Lauren Oliver gave a slight (or sometimes not-so-slight) cliffhanger and then you sort of had to put the puzzle pieces together to figure out the whole story, which I love. I love it when authors can get you to think your way through the story.
The actual story, honestly, I think I liked the story of Pandemonium much better than Delerium's. Delirium was sort of like Lena coming out of her comfort zone, watching her slowly discover that the "Invalids" actually aren't what the government wants her to think, that being "Uncured" is not a bad thing, and that love (or Delirium) isn't a disease. And I mean, I liked it, but Pandemonium is just slightly better, I think.

In this one, she is trying so hard to get over the death of Alex, and while 'burying' (forgeting
) Alex, she manages to forget who she really is. She becomes a "New Lena". I honestly didn't like the "New Lena", she just wasn't the Lena that we fell in love within Delirium, but still, it's important. She is now part of the "Resistance" and has made many friends in "The Wilds". During the "Then" chapters, you get to see how Lena became the Lena she is in the "Now" chapters. Through death, struggle, sickness, and (yes) bombs.

There are several parts near the end, when you get to see some of the Old Lena shine through a little, with memories of Alex, Hana, or her old life.

This is Lena trying to find out who she is, the Old Lena made by the government, or the New Lena made by the Resistance.
Okay, I'll admit it, I took Alex's death hard. I never really liked him, but he was important to Lena. And when he died, I could feel Lena's pain. But throughout reading the whole book, I absolutely refused to admit that he was dead. "He can't be dead, he can't be dead!" 

But once I met Julian, I liked him 100 times more than Alex! He was like Peeta in The Hunger Games

Throughout the book you could feel the confusion between Lena and Julian's feelings for each other. 

Lena is still fighting the pain from the lose of Alex, and now here's Julian. You feel sorry for her. And it takes the whole book before she discovers that Alex is gone. It's a way of saying that, yeah, Julian could never replace Alex in her life, but he could keep her safe, and he could just love her, like Alex did.

And for Julian, it's the confusion that's keeping him from loving Lena. It was so obvious he liked Lena from the beginning, but he had been told all his life that love was a bad thing. But now here was Lena. You feel bad for the poor guy struggling with his feelings. 

But what's also special about them is, that you get to see Lena play Alex. She teaches him about the Wilds, like Alex did, and teaches him that The Cure is bad. And I thought it was interesting to see that.
I have to mention this, because it really bothered me. There was a lot of cursing. worse than the first book.

in Delirium, there was about two or three bad words, but in this one, there was an uncountable number of curse words.

I always hate it when authors use curse words. (unless it's vital to the story) There are fifty billion ways you could've said that without using curse words! Ugh. But it was okay...
Overall, it was actually better than Delirium. 

The ending had me screaming "I knew it!", literally, as soon as I finished the last word. 

A great book!

Romance: Kissing, hugging, touching. Nothing too bad, but there was a lot.

Violence: There was actually more violence than the first book! oh yeah, there was a lot.

Recommended Age: I would recommend this book to anyone 14+

I give this book a solid four apples!

What's December Without Christmas Eve?

There's the snow

Look out below
And bundle up
Cause here it comes
Run outside
So starry eyed
A snowball fight breaks out
And winter has finally begun

It's here! Christmas Eve. The final day of waiting, the final push for Christmas...

On Thursday night we finally got snow! The wind, the snow. Ah, it was just beautiful. I wanted to run around and just soak up all the snowy goodness, but it was like midnight, and our neighbors already think we're creeps.

We only got like an inch. But I was happy. 

I twirl through the driveway with angelic grace

Till I slip on the sidewalk and fall on my face

This peppermint winter is so sugar sweet
I don't need to taste to believe
What's December without Christmas Eve?

I wanted to run around and just soak up all the snowy goodness, but it was like midnight, and our neighbors already think we're creeps.

We only got like an inch. But I was happy.

Hop in the sleigh

And we'll glide away
Into the night
And we'll sip on moonlight
Runny nose
My frosty toes
Are getting cold but I feel alive

So I smile wide 

A couple presents under the tree, and I'm simply oozing with excitement! Watching my siblings trying to guess what could possibly be in the packages. It's kind of funny actually, especially when you know what's in some of them. ;)

The snowflakes start falling and I start to float

Till my mean older brother stuffs snow down my coat
This peppermint winter is so sugar sweet
I don't need to taste to believe
What's December without Christmas Eve?

The beautiful feeling, that Christmas is tomorrow. That the waiting was worth it.

All this holiday cheer

Heaven knows where it goes
But it returns every year

And though this winter does nothing but storm
The joy in my heart is ablaze and it's keeping me warm
It's keeping me warm
It's keeping me warm

We finally get to celebrate the birth of our savior, Jesus. :)

I rip off the wrapping and tear through the box

Till I end up with 45 new pairs of socks

This peppermint winter is so sugar sweet
I don't need to taste to believe
What's December without Christmas Eve?~
Peppermint Winter, Owl City

So, enjoy your family, friends, gifts, and whatever tradition you might have. Christmas only comes once a year, so soak it up, try to remember every detail. And don't forget the reason why we have Christmas. ;)

This is Hannah, wishing you a Merry Christmas, or whatever it is you celebrate. <3 data-blogger-escaped-div="div">

Goodbye, world! It's been a good run!

Today the world is suppose to end. Well, suppose to according to the Mayan calender thingy.

Personally I don't really think that it's gonna happen, but my paranoid side is gonna be all jumpy.

I remember when I first learned about the world ending in 2012. I was twelve years old, and couldn't imagine 2012 ever coming. But now here it is.

People have been predicting when the world is going to end since forever. Ever since Jesus promised to come back some day, people have wondered when someday would be. I don't even know how many predictions there have been. (seriously!? guys, your acting as if you want the world to end. Geez, these predictors need a hobby... knitting?)

But really. Only God the father knows. Not even Jesus knows.

God said that as long as we know that we are ready for the world to end, we don't need to worry about it.
I don't care if the world ends.

I know I'll be okay. and in the end, I'll be going to an even better world, where I can see God every day.

I sort of want to be alive when the world ends. I want to see it with my own eyes. I just can't imagine how incredible it will be.

So, why don't we just stop predicting and enjoy this beautiful world God has given us while we wait patiently for Him. :)





I think I'm going to have wrinkles

Beauty fades so you'd better work at having something more to offer.~
 David Alejandro Fearnhead

Sometimes I look in the mirror, and try to guess where I'm going to have wrinkles.

Yeah, it's not a fun game to play.

But it's true, I'm going to have wrinkles someday. You will too.

I'm sorry, but I just have to roll my eyes at people who commit themselves to looking flawless. Because it's not possible. You are always going to have flaws in your eyes. And for those people who think that they have achieved 'beauty' you do realize that beauty fades, right?

Not that it's bad to try to look good. Personal hygiene is very important, folks. And, I'm sure we don't want to look like a tramp. But to completely enthrall yourself in looking good, it's just ridiculous.

I went to public school in 4th grade, and even in 4th grade the kids were busy making themselves 'perfect'. Girls would talk about how they shaved their legs, and they would wear huge dangle earrings.

Of course, my mom would never let me shave my legs, and I didn't even have my ears pierced back then. So, I just had to brush those things off (but not without a lot of begging on my part), and they eventually became unimportant.

Girls, especially, can get blinded with the thought of being beautiful, they buy expensive hair solutions, and cake makeup an inch thick on their faces.

I personally do buy hair solutions, but really, I would much rather just let my hair dry naturally, but my hair is the definition of frizzy, so I would look like a walking Q-tip if I didn't. And when it comes to make-up, I try to put on as little as possible, because I'm afraid of looking like a fish. (that's what I think people who put to much make-up on looks like)

So, I am no exception, I am like every girl when it comes to beauty. I have had my 'girl' moments when I just breakdown crying because I don't think I'm pretty. But I eventually get over it.

This is just sort of a letter to girls. letting them know that you are beautiful in God's eyes, don't look like a fish, and live your life the way God intended you to. And remember, beauty fades, so don't freak out over it all the time. God has something great in store for you, so don't let how your make-up looks blind you from that. <3      

Dragons can be Beaten!

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Hannah. She was horribly confused with what her friends were talking about, so when she saw that she got Once Upon a Time (a TV show) on Netflix, she excitedly started to watch it. One episode later, and she became completely enthralled with it, and wasted every spare hour watching it and trying to figure out who was who and dreaming about being a part of a fairytale story. And she lived happily ever after.

... The End.
That is my short (but true) story about how I joined yet another fandom.

Yes, I have fallen desperately in love with this show. And if you have no clue what I'm talking about... then what are you doing here!? get on youtube or Netflix and watch the first episode! Watch the episodes in order, because it shall make absolutely no sense if you don't.

...Okay, you don't have to, but if you do, you're awesome! :)

I've always loved fairytales. My love of unicorns, fairies, and true love have followed me through my teen years, and I guess, shall continue to follow me for the rest of my life.

As soon as I finished reading Ella Enchanted the first time, I loved the idea of taking a classic fairytale and giving it life! Stretching it out and giving it depth, it sounded genius. 

I've gobbled up every 'fairytale parody thing' I could find, and still love them to pieces. (Cinder, though, has to be the most genius one I have ever read.)
I saw a quote once, I couldn't find it, otherwise I would've posted it, that went something like;

Fairytales remind us, not that dragons exist, but that they can be beaten.

I totally got that wrong, but that's the basic idea of it.

I absolutely love this quote, it is true.

The thing that people like about fairytales, is that they remind us that there is such a thing as a happily ever after. That evil is always defeated, and dragons can be beaten.

Even the dragons in this world are nothing, because I know that someday, our knight in shining armor will come and defeat them all. <3

A Christmas-y Playlist for You!

So, hi, everyone!

I don't know about you, but I am very excited for Christmas! :D

And, I don't know about you, but I love, love, love, Christmas music!

So, I have thrown together a list of my absolute favorite Christmas songs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(to many exclamation points?)

There are 10 songs, because I didn't want to overwhelm you with songs (but mostly because I couldn't think of more than 10). I tried to get a variety of song for a lot of different people. Funny songs, sad songs, classic songs, yeah, I did my best.

Here are the songs, just in case you can't ready it on the list.

1) Come on Christmas// Matthew West

This is a song I like to listen to whether it's Christmas or not.

2) It's Beginning to look a lot like Christmas// Micheal Buble

3) Santa Baby// Taylor Swift

4) Christmas Medley// Jeffery Dallas
Jeffery Dallas is a character made up by (the genius) Julian Smith. And if your wondering why he's all... weird, it's because he ate a jellyfish.

5) Christmas Card// Steven Curtis Chapman
This is a song for anyone who's having a hard time this Christmas, just listen, this song is for you. :)

6) The First Noel// Kari Jobe

7) Christmas's when you were mine// Taylor Swift
For anyone who went through a hard break-up recently.
8) I wanna Hippopotamus for Christmas// Gayla Peevey
This song never fails to make me laugh! :)
9) Peppermint Winter// Owl City
It's by Owl City, it has to be awesome!
10) Last Christmas// Britt Nicole

Listen to the songs and let me know which ones you like! :)

Also, if you make a Christmas playlist, I would love to listen to it! Just put the link to yours in the comments!

Merry Christmas. <3

I'm a Purple Bumblebee, Jam-bor-ee

I'm gonna tell you guys a secret. Not a big secret. Actually, I don't know why it is a secret, it won't effect you or your life in any way, shape, or form, it's just a secret...

I... schedule my posts! (gasps, and horror movie screams)

Well, I mean, I didn't use to, just when I came back from my blogging slump I found it much easier to just type up what I had to say the night before when my mind was as fresh as a daisy. 'Cuz in the morning, when I used to write my posts, I was still fairly droggy and sleepy, so I couldn't ever think clearly. I don't know...

But anyway this is unscheduled!

Yep it's as unscheduled as an unscheduled post can get.

I got home late last night from a choir Christmas party (the most fun I've ever had without my sister!), so I was more interested in bed then thinking of something to write.

 Yeah, I have no clue where I'm going with this (as you can probably tell from the title), so just bare with me here, maybe there will be a life lesson in here somewhere.

So right now, I am sitting alone in our school room, and making myself some tea as I'm writing this. <3

Oh, my tea's done! It smells like lemon. and tastes really good. (sorry if I'm making you jealous;)

So recently I got a cell phone... (well, sort of, I have to share it with my five younger siblings) and I have finally learned what the big deal is about texting. And I have to say, that people who don't like it clearly haven't tried it! So, yeah, I'm a texter now. :P But don't worry, I haven't gotten into all that 'text language'. I'm sort of a secret grammer nazi, so I can't see myself ever getting into text language.

My sister, Erin made cupcakes the other day. (as you can see from the picture) They were orange cupcakes. Don't ask, I didn't have one, I was a bit to scared (even though orange is my favorite color), but my siblings thought they were good.


I need a hobby. I realized that a couple months ago. Maybe I should take up knitting. Not the kind with the loom that I usually do, I mean the hard-core kind you do with the two sticks. That'd be fun.

I like sweaters.

... and...

so, yeah, this post has been twisting and turning all over the place, but now the fun must end, for I have to do French. 

I guess that the lesson in all this is, don't be like me, think before you post, and... write it down afterward? (Sorry, couldn't resist the [almost] Through the Looking Glass quote)

Thank you for reading my mindless (very mindless) ramble. 

Au revoir! 

Christmas in the Making

I have noticed that, despite the excitement and extreme pleasure I am having since the Christmas season is upon us, there is a stunning lack of Christmas posts around here! Well let's change that!

I absolutely positively LOVE Christmas, and I mean LOVE! (notice my use of bold and italics on that last LOVE) With every Christmas commercial, every Christmas special, every ornament we put on the tree, every Christmas cookie indulged, and every Christmas song that gets played on the radio, (The country music station is now my favorite radio station because they've been playing like nothing but Christmas music 24/7) gets me more and more excited for the Chritmas-y goodness that is Christmas day. :)

Christmas (sorry, I absolutely refuse to call it 'the Holidays' it just doesn't sound right. Christmas, Christmas, Christmas.) for us is a conglomeration of putting our Christmas tree up late-ish, we usually wait until like a week after Thanksgiving, scented candles, Christmas specials every night, Christmas cookies, etc.

I try to live up as much Christmas as I can, because, well, how many times can you celebrate Christmas-y goodness a year?

And the best part, celebrating the birth of our Lord and Savior, Jesus! XD It's all so exciting!

What's your Christmas like?

My Pledge to Write Words.

I love following blogs! If I find a blog (most of the time by a fellow teen blogger) I will follow. :) I follow a variety of blogs, by a variety of writers. And I have learned that my favorite blogs to read are the ones with words.

The type of blog that I find myself reading late at night on my tablet are the blogs that have long posts, with words that just flow perfectly together. Words that mean something to someone in their life. Words that just touch people and help in their situations.

I'm the sort of girl who loves to read long books. The thicker the better, I say. and I don't bore you with EXTREMELY long posts, but I want to start writing words.

If I don't write my thoughts down, I will go completely and utterly mad!

I've noticed sooo many blogs, that used to write long posts that I just gobbled up, have sort of changed.

All of these amazing blogs have turned into photography blogs. You know what I mean?

Not that photography blogs are bad, I follow several, and I always enjoy scrolling through the many beautiful pictures. And that's the way that some people express themselves, through taking pictures of the world around them, capturing memories. I enjoy taking pictures myself.

But for these blogs that used to have long posts with words, not photos, I still expect some words.

I'll still follow and look around, but it just doesn't seem the same.

I'm not trying to shoot down these blogs, I just want more words and less photos. A nice balance is perfect.

This is just a pledge to you guys, to promise words, and not always photos. An occasional photography post  might be in order, when I have an exciting picture to show you. But I don't want this to be a photography blog.

Thanks for reading my mindless ramble <3

Meet Me in St. Louis (Part Two at the Zoo)

Click here for part one!

So, I'll just skip the introduction and go straight to where I left off...

After the good night sleep, I felt amazing... well, that's actually sort of a lie, I kept waking up in the night because I was cold and felt like I was going to fall off the bed. (I was sleeping on the edge for some reason.) But I was glad to get any sleep.

The alarm on one of my roommate's iPod went off at around 7:00, and I rushed to get ready, since we had to be at the bus by 8:00, and the thought of four girls getting ready in an hour sounded almost impossible.

But it wasn't until after I got all ready within a half an hour, and feeling really good that we would make it on time, we discovered that we forgot about the time change. We actually woke up an hour earlier than planned! The time change thing still confuses me, so I don't know how to explain it. We actually had to be at the bus 8:00 home time, not Missouri time.

Long, complicated time change confusion thing later, I had a whole hour to relax before I had to be at the bus. So, I enjoyed a nice cup of tea, and watched a very interesting movie on TNT. (It had blood, and bombs, is all I remember.)

After the long hour was over, we made our way to the lobby, where we checked out and got settled into the bus.

We ate a delicious breakfast at Hardey's, and then we headed over to Missouri. (Our hotel was in Illinois)

It was really cold outside so the leaders asked if we would rather go to the Zoo (like we had planned) or go to the Abraham Lincoln Museum (or something) instead. Of course we chose the zoo!

Yep, I was willing to fight through the cold to see cute little animals.

It was a free zoo so we walked right in, and started looking around.

don't worry, she's not dead... I think.

It was well.... a free zoo. several of the animals weren't out because it was freezing cold, but some of it was cool.

One of the highlights was meeting this guy;

This pretty peacock stayed around our little group for awhile, in which I took the advantage and took several pictures. but alas, he never fanned his feathers... :(

After a (very spicy) lunch at the zoo cafe, we got back to the bus, and headed home with a boatload of stories.

so, yeah, I had a super fun time! And I'd love to go again. :)

Because I'm Not the Best...

I decided a long time ago that I'm not good at anything.

Not that I can't do anything, I do lots of things, Writing, Acting, Singing, Cooking... but the thing is I'm not amazing at doing them.

I've always felt that everyone has something that they are just UH-MAY-ZING at. Something that they can do better than anyone else in the universe. But me, well, I can't do anything.

Everything I like to do, everyone else can do 1,000 times better.

I guess I can't ever be the best at everything. All my life I will encounter people who can do things better than me. Blogging, Designing, Drawing (especially drawing!)...

I have always loved to write. My childhood memories are clouded with memories of writing little nonsense stories in my little notebooks. And glowing when Mommy told me that I was the best little writer in the world.

But a couple years ago, I learned that there are a lot of people who have a dream of being a famous author on day.I would go on Go Teen Writers (an awesome teen writer site, check it out!) and read all of these things written by kids, my own age even, who were amazing compared to me.

I felt like a small fish in a big ocean.

Why in the world would a publishing company want to publish my little book when all of  these people can write like they've published 50 bazillion best selling novels?

I just felt like curling up in a hole and giving up.

But the thing is, when you think about it, how did these people get to be so good?.. How can they write like that?..

The answer is because they do what they enjoy. They might have felt they way I did, but they overcame their feelings of not-good-enough, and perfected their art.

No one gets anywhere giving up, and so after a long slump, I'm finally getting back to my writing. And, while I might not be the best right now, I'm sure I can get better with critique and work. I just can't give up. :)


Meet Me in St. Louis (Part One)

A couple posts or so ago, you might remember my BIG announcement  that I would be going to St. Louis for a 4-H Jr. Leader achievement trip.

And a giant, unexpected blogger slump/break later, I went and came back... alive!

That has been, by far, the farthest away from home I (a poor, unsocial, live-under-a-rock, homeschooler) has ever been. Even my dad hasn't been to Missouri... but now I have. haha.

It. was. a. blast.

Of course, me being me, I didn't talk to many people in the group, just my close friends form my little homeschool community, plus one of my roommates who I didn't know very well at the hotel.

Along for the ride, my trusty camera, Bo, tagged along.

So now's the time for me to overwhelm you with pictures of my trip, and (completely unintentionally, of course;) make you ooz with jealousy that I got to go and you didn't get to come with me. (Just kidding)

the lovely view of St. Louis from the bus. :)
So, after the long five hour drive to the city, the first stop was, of course, to see what the big deal was about the arch.

Up the steps! (blurrrry Ugh!)

It took awhile for my companions to convince me that we were actually going inside the arch. But, I guess wonders won't ever cease.

Yes,  five of us (including a poor stranger) were packed into a little tram the size of a dryer on the way up.

The ride on the tram up was, in a word, terrifying! Scared me to death! But the view once we got to the top was amazing!

the baseball stadium, for my brothers ;)

Here is St. Louis and all it's glory.
The ride down the tram was much more enjoyable than the ride up, I must admit.

Then we ate lunch in this really cool mall. I wish I took a picture of it. It was like this old train station that they converted into a mall. But, yeah. It was pretty awesome! :)

We then proceeded to go to the City Museum, which was anything but a boring old run-off-the-mill art museum. I didn't get any pictures there either, because my camera would've gotten lost or broken from all the climbing and jumping and sliding I did. Go to their website to see what I mean.

After several hours of priceless fun at the museum, we ate supper at the (very cool) Rock Cafe.

I didn't really know much about the Rock Cafe until I went, but the whole time all I could think about was how much my sister, Chauncea, would love that place. The guitars, and memorabilia, and the constant music playing in the background. Top it off with the delicious burgers and I think she would live there!

After stuffing myself with Rock Cafe goodness, we went to a very (boring and nerdy) arcade where I played (and lost miserably at) playing laser tag. But hey it was my first time playing, I'd expect myself to loose...

It was a long day full of... fun! and... stuff. But I was sooo tired by the time we got to the hotel, I would've slept forever.

But what I did the next day..? Well, that's for part two! :)  

A Year or so Ago. :)

Guess what, guess what, guess what!!!

I checked my blogaversary on my old blog (you know, the one I stopped?) and I found out that a week ago was the day I started blogging! (I'm sorry if that wording is confusing, I had trouble figuring out how to say it)

I have now been a-blogging for a whole year! 365 days! (or 366, leap year)

I've gained followers, I've lost followers. I've been in slumps, I've posted stupid things that were and are completely pointless.

For those of you who have stuck with me from the beginning, I love you!! :) and welcome to any new followers, I love you too! :D

I wish I could follow and get to know all of you. (and I would if I had endless time on my hands)

Thanks. :)

If I had been a better blogger back then, I would post the link to my first ever post, but alas, my first post was rather embarrassing and pointless. Sorry, but I don't want you guys to read it. But if you have the link to my old blog, you can find it if you want. (No, I'm not even posting the link to my old blog. I should just delete it, but it's so sentimental, I just don't have the heart.)

Anyway! Thank you all for following! Let's make this next year just as fantastic as the last.

It was a blast! :)


So Many Choices!

I'm so confused! I don't know what to do with myself!

People ask me what I'm going to do with myself after high school, and I just gape. I have NO clue.

I want to be all sorts of things that don't really fit together, and I know that if I choose one thing I won't be able to choose the other.

I get inspired by things, but then I get inspired for a totally different thing.

I want to be an actress, an author, a singer, I can't decide!

It's like I'm on a dizzying merry-go-round. I'm not going anywhere, I'm just confused.

What am I supposed to do with my life!?I wish that someone would just tell me. But I don't know.

I know that this is something between me and God, and that only He knows what I'm meant to be, but I'm having trouble figuring it out. What does God want me to do?

I don't know.

But I can't wait to find out. :)

Back to Writing

Yes, after a long writing slump, I have finally gotten back into the swing of things.

Y'all probably remember this post where I was all frustrated with my current story idea because I couldn't get the beginning right. Well, I was just so annoyed with it that I just stopped.

I still adored the idea, but I just stopped. Every time I sat down to write a blank screen would just stare back at me for hours upon hours. (okay maybe more like for a half an hour, but it sure felt like hours upon hours)

So during my month of nothing, I had time to think, and think, and think. I came up with more story ideas and, and thought some more.

I finally decided that I was taking this (mentioned above) story that I was working on the wrong way. So after a lot of plotting, cutting, and pasting ideas, I came up with a whole other story that I am most defiantly excited about.

I'm absolutely loving it!

I can't tell you all details (for fear of creepers who steal without question) but here's the first line of the prologue;

They think I don’t remember, but I do. 

Eeep, I'm so excited!

I am in love with my main character, Bri, even though I'm still learning who she is. The plot is still a bit shaky, but I'm working hard on it, and I'm praying that I won't give up on this.

What are you excited about?

Saturday Nothingness

You know those Saturdays, when you feel like there's nothing to do, nowhere to go? Well, that's how this Saturday is feeling.

The only thing I can do is go on the computer fifty million times, and anxiously wait for the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle series premier. (is it weird that I'm getting excited for that?)

I just feel like I need to do something!

But I'm sure that once Mom gets back from Erin's soccer game, she's going to have chores for us to do, so I shouldn't complain.

I need ideas.

There should be a list on Google or something of things to do on a lazy Saturday morning.

I don't know.

What are your plans on this lovely September Saturday?

Plays and Whatnot

Most of you probably know that I'm a part of a (super fun) homeschool drama club. I have been a part of this club for four years now, and it's been absolutely amazing!

We have done so many awesome plays, including, Little Women, A Tale of Two Cities, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, and Rally 'Round the Flag Boys.

Each play is even better than the last, and you better believe that after each performance we get all anxious for the next play to be announced. 

I in particular find myself checking my e-mails constantly for the announcement of the next play.

Just last year, we started doing two plays a year, one for the older kids, and one for the younger kids, and this year I get to audition for the older one!

Sorry, I'm just really excited, because both plays were announced!

Yep, this morning, when I checked my e-mail, there it was, the announcement e-mail, waiting for me.

Excited, I clicked on it, scrolled down, and written in big, fancy font was;

Pride and Prejudice

I may have squealed just a bit. 

Everyone in the whole drama club (well, as far as I know) has wanted and begged to do Pride and Prejudice forever. 

As you can imagine, I am over-the-moon excited, and am anxiously awaiting the auditions.


And my little sister's excited, because for the younger play they are doing; The Red Shoes. We don't know much about it, but we love learning new stories.

So, what have you been up to?

I Think I was Born in the Wrong Decade...

Truly I do.

I always look at things from the 30s-40s-50s and just wish and wish and wish that I could live in a world where dressing like that in public would be normal.

I remember I used to dream of being Shirley Temple when I was little. Seriously, I think I have seen every single Shirley Temple movie in existence.

But the sad thing is, I think I was the only five-year-old little girl who knew about Shirley Temple. It's a shame. :(

But I don't think that my love for the early 1900s started until our drama club did a play based in the 50s.

I wasn't in it, but I would walk around back stage just soaking in all of the vintage-y stuff like a sponge.

Oh, why couldn't I have been born 100 years earlier?

Those Pictures You Don't Know What to do With

You know what it's like to have fifty million pictures that you've taken. You love them all, but you just can't seem to make them work in any of your posts?

I have so many pictures that I so want to show you, but can't because they don't go with any of my post ideas.

But never no more!

This post is completely dedicated to pictures! (And not pictures from Pinterest.)

I fell in love with photography when I got my first camera for Christmas in 2011, and I have been snapping pictures ever since.

If you see some of my first pictures you can defiantly tell that I've improved.

My camera's not the best, but I still love finding new ways to use it, and pushing it to it's limits.

I have also found a love of editing and making my photos look even better.

Just capturing the little things in life that make you smile. :) That's what I love.

Everyone Needs a Confidence Boost Once in a While

I have a confidence problem. But I guess we all do once in a while. You feel like no one can except you as you.

That's how I feel a lot. I have to go out of my way to make people like me.

I'm also a people-pleaser, and when these two characteristics go hand in hand, it isn't pretty.

Especially with this blog, I see other people who have better blog names, better posts, and more followers, and I automatically think that I have to be like them to go anywhere in the blogging world.

Which is why (as you have probably noticed from the many polls I've had) I have been stressing out over if I should change my blog name or not.

I want to be me. My quirky, shy, giggly self.

It's not going to be worth sharing my life with you all if I'm not myself.

That was one of my goals when I relaunched my blog a month ago, to be myself.

Because I struggle with it so.

If you guys can't stand my blog name, please tell me in the comments, or just vote on the poll. I want to keep one name forever, so if I do end up changing it, it will be here forever.

So, please let me know.

I'm trying hard to find out who I am. I like to sew, and knit, and embroider, even though I've never actually learned.

I like photography, but I also love to write long paragraphs too.

I'm not picky when it comes to reading, I love all genres. I'm a people pleaser, but I still want to be myself.

I prefer vanilla over chocolate.

I would rather watch I Love Lucy reruns than Jersey Shores. I'm homeschooled.

I'm different. And that's okay, everyone's different. I just have to be myself. And this blog is helping.

Thank you all for following me. :) I thank God for each and every one of you. With each new follower, I feel more sure of myself, and I'd like to thank you all for liking me for me.

So, this post has turned out to be much longer than I hoped, so I'll close.

Thank you.    

A Chilly Beginning

Autumn has arrived, and it started off with a bang. The wind, the leaves, everything. It's like the world was just waiting for the first day of fall to explode in a cascade of color and chilliness.

I don't know what it was like where you live, but here it was just plain cold.

We were planning on going to a family reunion yesterday. Needless to say, it was canceled, and most of us got to stay home most of the day.

Every time I would look out the window, the trees would be a little more bare, and the wind would be pushing the branches around.

Old sweatpants that I had gotten ride of in the Summer have come back to haunt me. Scarves, and gloves scatter the floor. And jacket are hung on pegs.

I have this strange new desire to learn how to knit and crochet.

It's time. Autumn has come. :)